Joshua's Letter

Today was a big day for me. A few months back I lost somebody very close to me. Ever since then, I have had a very hard time coping things. For someone as outgoing as I am, I find it very hard to talk to people about my emotions and how things affect when I am going through something that negatively impacts my life. Today, I was asked by my friend's parents to write a letter about how his death has affected me. At first, I was extremely hesitant. I did not feel comfortable with revisiting those emotions, and I definitely did not feel comfortable with sharing those feelings with someone that I do not know. Although I felt this way, I knew that it was for Joshua so I began writing the letter anyway. Shortly into the letter I realized what was really going on. I was writing down every single feeling that I have ever felt towards losing my friend, and for once since he passed I finally started to feel a little bit better about things. I soon realized that I was coming up with a new way of coping with things. After finishing a letter that I thought would be about a page long, I looked back to see a 4 page long masterpiece. I feel a lot more at ease now, and love my new coping method. Overall today has been successful, when I thought it would be tough!